a song is always there to sing

"Where Necessary"

fighting the urge to self-sabotage
fighting the want to bite instead of dodge
the bullet
as its aimed right at my skull.
pushing patience in the face of its evil twin,
knowing I may never happen on this chance again,
I hold on to the rails on the way down or up I'm not quite sure.

but there's always the possibility
of things changing into the way they could be
so I'll only make a difference
where necessary

this is what I've wanted for years
wished for & waited on, sweat blood & tears
welled up for hours, days, months, a decade.
few have reached this page and kept on turning
fewer had the wisdom to continue learning
by this age i thought i should know the way.

but there's always the possibility
of my mind changing nightly
so I'll only make a difference
where necessary